Knowing you Jesus…there is no greater thing

There are times when we can’t seem to hear God or find him as close. He doesn’t play hide and seek or tease us but he wants us to know that there is never a place when he is not there and it seems its God's way of calling us closer so we don't settle for second best, his plan is to produce a mature bride.

Just lately I have been really shocked by my emotional reactions when I have felt out of my comfort zone. Without the support of my routine, my friendships and things I can control I have felt at sea and at times close to tears.  I am in a 'hormonally challenging' season but it’s still scary when I realize how much I have built around myself to keep me feeling safe and secure.

Playing it safe as a believer can keep us lulled into a false sense of security. We can hear great preaches, read the latest books and talk about the Kingdom whilst still preferring a personal space that is both safe and comfortable... it’s exactly how the enemy wants us to live where we will create least disturbance and see little Kingdom Advance.

The other night I had a dream where I had invited all my close friends to spend the evening with me, friends who I love to be with but when I looked I noticed others had come too and they were drug addicts, prostitutes and people I wouldn’t have chosen to invite, people I was even afraid of and considered dangerous but then I saw myself in the dream praying for them to receive the Holy Spirit and one by one they kept falling under the power of the Spirit. The dream has stayed with me and been provoking me that God has in fact called me out of what is safe and predictable to live a radical lifestyle of love and power. 

I am both excited and scared by how uncomfortable I feel about that and at the same time reminded that there is nothing I can bring of myself. I am totally dependent on him working through me and breaking my heart to love others more than myself

I will bear more fruit as I rest in Christ than through self effort

Although its painful it is the Father’s love to strip away all that I depend on so that all that’s left is Him!